Right now I have two big buckets labeled “work” and “self care”. If I something doesn’t fit into one of those buckets, then it’s going into an equally metaphorical junk drawer to be dealt with at an unspecified later date. The tasks and projects inside the buckets are being filtered down further using the MoSCoW Method — Must Have (required), Should Have (nice to have, high priority), Could Have (nice to have, low priority), and Won’t Have (unnecessary, low return). I’m not dealing with anything right now that isn’t clearly a Must Have. Which means I’m working on things that have clear deadlines and pay the bills, getting plenty of rest, and slowing making plans for the “nice to have” stuff as I have the time and energy to do so.
The answer to most questions you might have is probably “because my chronic pain and my generalized anxiety disorder are under control right now, and I’d like to keep it that way”. Why am I doing this? Why am I not working on that? Why am I writing about this? Why am I not talking about that? Why am I behaving in a certain way? Why am I not acting in some other way? Because for the first time in a while, this — allowing for variable definitions of “this” — feels like it’s working for me.
This blog is an oddity, in that it doesn’t fit into either bucket, but I don’t want to put it into the junk drawer, either. It’s only peripherally work-related, less so since I’m writing a work-related blog for my day job at Dancing Lights Press. A case could be made that it’s self care-adjacent, because it involved expression, community, and communication. It’s decidedly not a Must Have. I’m thinking that it’s a “nice to have”, but I’m not sure whether it’s high or low priority.
For the time being I’m going to continue blogging as I have been, using it as my social media substitute. It will come after essential work and self-care tasks have been accomplished for the day. I will post when I have time, and when I’ve got something to so. If a few days go by and I haven’t posted, don’t worry. I’ll be back as soon as I’ve taken care of some things I need to do.