I wanted to give you an update on my exhaustion and recovery. It’s been not quite two months since I crashed and burned out. My original expectation was that I could slow down, catch up, and be back to “normal” within a couple of weeks. I cut everything out of my schedule except binding obligations, the things I needed to do to pay the bills, and much-needed self work. All of the unavoidable commitments are now complete and off my plate. I thought that at this point I’d start adding back-burnered projects back in. I’m actually still making cuts. It’s one of those situations where in addressing the damage you keep finding more, deeper damage. I’m fine. I’m okay. Things[…]

My name is Berin and I haven’t been drinking enough water. Caffeine is my drug of choice, and coffee is my preferred delivery system. I know that there’s conflicting science about whether or not drinking coffee actually dehydrates you (please, leave your opinion and links in the comments below), but it doesn’t matter. For whatever reason, when I finally crashed I was dehydrated. When I read up on what the signs, symptoms, and causes of exhaustion were, the first thing that I added to my self-care routine was to make sure I drink plenty of water. When I first get up in the morning, before I have coffee or anything else, I drink two full glasses of water. Okay, I’m[…]

At the beginning of the month I made the realization that I was exhausted. Not just tired, but on the road to a breakdown. I was constantly fatigued, having trouble maintaining focus, and dehydrated. To deal with my condition I cut back on my workload and increased time for self-care. Since then I’ve been getting enough rest, eating healthier, drinking enough water, and taking better care of myself. Yet I still feel essentially the same as I did weeks ago. I’m not just exhausted, I’m burned out. There’s actually a model for this. called the Job Demands-Resources model, or JD-R. When work pressure and emotional demands are high, so is our stress. No kidding, right? When job resources, which are[…]

This is just a quick pop-in to let everyone know how things are going. This quasi-retreat restructuring of both my work schedule and my life needs is quite pleasant. I’m listening to nothing but silence, with occasional nature sounds and Tibetan singing bowls when I need a little white noise. I’m putting the wraps on the final issue of HUBRIS: The Journal of Cultural Horror, which will be released next week. That will dovetail into my plans for this space, which I want to share with you. I’m using this hiatus productively. First, though, I found this quote by blogger karigee, via kottke, on why she continues to keep a blog: “I also keep it out of spite, because I[…]

Even though I set an alarm clock, I’m usually up before it goes off. I think it’s because I hate the noise. I need to keep my mornings sane, and buzzing or ringing or music startling me awake isn’t conducive to tranquility and my overall pleasant demeanor. When I get up in the morning, I fill the electric kettle with cold water and turn it on. I use cold water out of habit. In the United States, in the places that I’ve lived, warm and hot water carry more particulate. It’s cloudy. In Finland it’s clear at any temperature, but I still feel like it’s more pure when I start with cold. I measure out ground coffee into the French[…]