7:00 am EEST (GMT+3). This is the June 13 2020 daily proof of life post. Today is about getting results and conserving spoons. I’m up to my eyeballs in “personal life” stuff and dangerously low on energy. As such, I’m focusing on the tasks that provide the outputs I need. Everything else is getting a pin stuck in it. Some changes are going to be permanent, but I want to be less stressed and in a better frame of mind before I make any declarations. This is as much business management as it is self-care.
All of this is normal, cyclical stuff — immigration status renewal, taxes, yadda yadda yadda. But there’s still a pandemic going on, and what’s going on in America. I need to manage my physical and mental health. It doesn’t mean doing less, it just means being targeted. I need to be mindful of how I spend my spoons.
Which I why yesterday we just got the hell out of the house for a while. I packed oats and cut-up grapes, and we fed the ducks. We stopped at a store and bought drinks and prepackaged sandwiches. There was a summertime ice cream stand open — just one, at a time of year where you usually can’t swing a show without hitting one — and got a treat.
It reminded me that the world outside of the apartment, outside the internet, outside of my own head is a very different one indeed. No non-stop arguments over what the Mad Carrot said or did. No worries about filing deadlines and paperwork and finances. Just sunshine, and quiet, and a little bit of peace.