7:00 am EEST (GMT+3). This is the June 10 2020 daily proof of life post. I hope everyone is safe and well, and that the events of your day are happy and healing.
Yesterday I woke up at 5 am. I hadn’t slept well, and finally gave up. By 7 am, when I make my proof of life entry, I’d edited 5 pages of a WIP and written 3 blog posts. Since it was still cool in the apartment, I also baked banana muffins. Then I did two loads of laundry, requiring four trips up and down two flights of stairs on my screaming hip. At that point Katie was getting up, so I made breakfast burritos. By 9 am I’d cooked enough macaroni and chopped enough vegetables to make enough pasta salad to last a week. I also made yogurt rice to use as both a side dish and a snack with future meals. Then I cleaned the kitchen to a spotless condition, leaving no evidence of how busy I’d been.
I’ve written about this before, but cooking is control for me. I can’t do anything to fix what’s happening in the world, but I still have dominion over my own kitchen. Food is safety and security. No matter what happens, the pantry is stocked and we’re not going to starve. This is how I manage my anxiety.