May 6 2020: Yesterday I ran out of spoons in a spectacular way. Well, it felt dramatic to me. I’m sure to an outside observer it just looked like I kept toddling off for a series of increasingly longer naps. Starting at about 3 in the afternoon I would go lay down for a few minutes, get up and work for a while, then go lay down again. At 9 last night I went to be, feel asleep instantly, and woke up at 10. Katie and I watched some TV for about and hour (Community and Robot Chicken). Then I was in bed again by 11 and slept soundly until 7 this morning.
I think it’s just depression. Which is annoying, because the first part of yesterday was aggressively productive and I was feeling good about things. For lunch I make pizza from scratch, something that felt more replenishing of the spoons that using up a finite resource. Still feeling good physically, aside from being bone-crushingly tired.
Somehow I expect today to be more of the same. I have more to do than there is time to do it. Running out of energy is going to be frustrating, but I’m going to have to pace myself while still pushing forward.
May 6 2020
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