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I Realized I Was Beginning to Spiral

My plans for the weekend include writing project plans, outlining the next several books, and watching the train wreck that will be Wrestlemania 36. The latter warrants its own post next week, after it’s over. On Friday I realized I was beginning to spiral. It was a mixture of anxiety and executive dysfunction. I need […]

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Being Here and Still Trying to Be Better

Sometimes, being here and still trying to be better is all the victory you need… Dwayne Johnson, who fascinates me with the weird position in the culture he’s taken, recently gave a talk in which he said, “at some point you’ve got to be fucking tired of not being number one.”  Which is fair, and […]

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Mindfulness and Adrenal Fatigue

As much as I’d like my life right now to be focused on writing, reading, and cooking, it’s all mindfulness and adrenal fatigue. The other day I left the apartment to do laundry. It was a short walk to the building next door, but I was keenly aware of what I was not touching. I […]

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Interlude: This New Normal

For weeks now I have tried, as much as possible, to carry on as usual. I was already in hermit mode. My default setting is introverted and antisocial. Yes, I have changed my grocery shopping and cooking habits. Rather than twice a week I go once a week, with an eye on the possibility that […]

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A Simple Slice of Apple Pie

This is Day 12 of Camp Corona. Part of me is disappointed that I haven’t already written 672 books by now. My productivity tends to come to a grinding halt when my focus needs to be a project that I’m not exuberantly passionate about. Which isn’t saying that it won’t be a good book, or […]